I’ve been thinking… What if I don’t care about having a “career”?

I’ve been thinking…

I’m excited about learning… Not as excited as I should be as is noted by my often seen lack of discipline in the studying department, but I’m working on that. I have just a few (17?) units left until I have my Master’s degree. So now is the time that everyone is asking what my career moves will be… Is it bad that I don’t care if I ever have a career? I have ideas for a career and I intend to do some of them throughout life… I’m definitely not going to just sit around… but…

I’m excited about love. What? Yeah. I am. I’m excited about how I’m learning to love. I love Jesus more today than I did last week… and as a result, I love people more and better than I did last week. I’m excited that as I learn to love Jesus and others, I think less about ME ME ME! (Much further to go on that….)

I’m excited about family… as I look to the future, trusting that someday I’ll have “one of my own.” I can tell I’m “getting older” because my hands are wrinkly (oh wait, they’ve always been that way!) … because I think about how I want to raise my children, all the time. I think about baking cookies with them and helping them learn not to drop egg shells into the dough. I think about making them eat their vegetables. I think about teaching them to love Jesus and to live with purpose. I think about going on walks to the park and meeting other moms, telling them about Jesus while my kids tell their kids. (Yeah, they will!) I think about taking them on mission trips from a very young age. I think about how I will love my husband and how much I’ll learn about love from him… I think about how fun (and attractive) it will be to watch him be a daddy. I think about how much he’s going to irritate me sometimes for the very same reasons I find him adorable! :o) I know it will be good, but not easy. I like that.

And all of that is more important to me than any career - even if it is a career of ministry… I’m not saying I will never have one… But if I don’t is it a sacrifice? Is it giving up my dreams? No way! No matter what, I’ve not wasted my time getting my Master’s. I came to learn… to be more equipped for a life of ministry that God has called me to, serving Jesus and equipping others to do the same… even if I’m here to learn to teach my kids and help my husband (who I am assuming will probably have similar passions to mine or I probably wouldn‘t marry him).

I may have a “career” for a while or an attempt at one in some form or fashion, being that no one is asking me to marry them quite yet… or even on a date. Feel free to pray about that for me. ;o)

But I’m excited about today too and I’ll live in it while I’m here… My life is a blessed one and I’m trying not to take that for granted… Whatever God gives me, I will serve Him in… And that’s all I can say about that.

(Sometimes I feel like I’m not supposed to say these things… but there you have it. It’s true!)